“I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.”
Goal: I want this…. then I want to go back…. not until then. That would make me a hypocrite, and who needs that? I already won’t get my friends back, better like the company I keep in the empty moments……ideal? maybe?
This is however already in the works…. I made a few phone calls today and yesterday—- it’s about time for another hump I guess….. just in a non sexual way.
Never be vulnerable and never EVER be flawed.
Ever.
Signed,
Me.
Okay, so I get being angry with me, but do you really have to hurt other people to hurt me? Because in the end… those people that did care for me— some day, some way, somehow….. if they were really friends…. they will have just stepped back for some time.
And for those people that get caught up in the rumors…. it just shows how immature you are. If you know/knew me, you know my character….. and the bad stuff my flaws they make great fuel— but in the end you know the constant me…. and thats all there is to it. You know who i was constantly…. and if there were bad things under the surface… well— you have them too. And they all come out— just like I have seen people i cared deeply for—- how their bad parts do come out and are existant.
And it reminds me that we are all human…. even me….. and i will make mistakes… and i have to forgive myself for them and not wait for other people to forgive me…. because if they do that says loads about their character…. just like listening to all the rumors or the exaggerated tales…. that stuff that your friend told you about me….yeah that stuff will tell you of your character also…..
i am done being sorry. i am sorry for what i have done and have said my peace….its over…. it is done… i am moving on. when the rest of you are ready to join me…. your presence will be welcomed.
