My room smells like dirty wet clothes and it was horrible to sleep in last night. I think tonight is my one chance to actually do laundry. Especially since tomorrow and sunday I am going to be at my first two days of training. You know– for Apple.
In other news, it looks like I won’t be even applying to ER. This decision did not come because I didn’t want to, or because my school wouldn’t let me come. It came because my father reminded me that the moment I don’t go back to school, even to defer– I am off the insurance. And right now, that is not something I am willing to risk (especially with my tests coming back not 100 percent like they normally do). Regardless of anything, my health is more important to me than doing what I think is the right thing to do. And- I think it might calm a lot of the anxieties that I was feeling between friends that are leaving at the end of this semester, and those that aren’t.
Not that this (the anxiety) was enough to keep me away. But like I said, my health does come first. Well that and because I would really like to keep my job at Apple (if I decide I like it). My other option (well one of a few) for next year, is to say “fuck it” and get an apartment of my own, with my friend Dana. This right now is at the top of my list.
Dana doesn’t go to school with me, in fact she is another big homo that I know, that wants to go to grad school in my area. And honestly– I am pretty sure we would make the most kick ass apartment-mates ever. I can’t tell you why, I just know that we would though. And if she is working full time and going to school (I mean— isn’t that what you do when you go to grad school???) and I am going (first) full-time to school and even part time with Apple (especially after making the big bucks this summer) we should get along quite nicely once I graduate and can go full time (especially if they give me full-time pay which in that time could possibly be the case if I can show them how I kick ass at my jobs). But of course this is all contingent upon if she gets into the school or not and decides to go there. (Secretly I hope she does). And with my school we can find some pretty cheap places in nice areas because they like kids from my school. But— who knows. I just know that if we do, do this apt thing right away, I want a dark long-haired chihuahua named Reginald.
Anyway, I will update more later but I have to get dressed and go to my EARLY doc appointment. Wish me luck. Hopefully it is just something like Mono or whatever.
