i don’t know how many of you have seen the movie “you and me” about the two women who fall in love at their first glance….3 seconds or something. one of them is on their way to the altar to be married while the other is going to work on the flower arrangements.

to be honest- i am not sure if i believe in love at first sight, but to be even more honest, i really want it to be true.

what i mean to say is this: what if “love at first sight” just means an instant connection. the anxiety. the want to talk to that certain person every second, and thinking of them when you should be studying for school, or watching your child’s soccer game, or shelving books at work (or it’s equivalent of waiting tables).

i don’t feel like that often, but there is something about fate (which i do tend to believe in) that just gets me caught up. and usually it’s when the feelings you are feeling are reciprocated. the anxiousness. the trying to make everything you say witty and cute. hiding things you wouldn’t normally hide, just in case you are wrong (it makes the small shock of hurt dull quicker we think). but- this feeling makes me feel alive again. and most of the time it doesn’t mean much of anything. but every time i want it to.

even if i don’t know enough to give you a legitimate reason. i don’t know anything about her except where she lives, where she works, where she went to school, and her name. am i being foolish? probably. but she made me feel connected– if only for an hour of my whole life. but it was enough. just enough.

also- i told my roommate today that i am gay. and she was okay with it actually. so now that THAT is out of the way.

and now i have to study….